Letting go, to me, has always been difficult. I find it hard to let go of memories, of personal things, of failing relationships, of friendships… but perhaps there comes a time in our lives when we need to stop expecting problems to dissipate or habits to change and just accept that a relationship or friendship is no longer working.
I have been stuck twice in that situation and both times I have hung on stubbornly; believing that time, faith and love with make everything better. Waking up full of hope and going to sleep in disappointment was a regular affair. Despite all the heartache, the bewilderment and the disappointment, I hung on. And on. And on. But then there is always one day, when we least expect it, we know in our hearts we have ran the race and have reached the end. It is they day I am 101% sure I am indifferent and going to stay that way. It is the day I ask myself over and over again to do something but cannot seem to bring myself to do anything because I have lost that spark of hope. It is the day I tell myself “enough”. It is the day I am so exhausted I am numb to pain. It is the day I and so frustrated I can’t even talk to myself about it.
It is the day I choose to put the past behind me.
Sure – at times I still look at that two incidents in my life and allow the quick “what ifs” to pass through my mind but I know this was just part of the emotional rollercoaster ride. I know if I stuck to it, I will be ok in minutes, in hours, perhaps a day. But point is, I will be ok. I am ok.
Someone sent this (see below) to me 2 months ago. Someone I have grown to care for a lot. It’s ironic that I now have to use the very same email to try figure out how the person fits in to my life….was that person a reason … a season … or a lifetime? I’m confused.
When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.
Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.
LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.
Thank you for being a part of my life, whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime.
1 comment:
As weird as it sounds, I always knew you would understand, somehow. You really are a wonderful person and don't let anyone tell you otherwise, not even me. The cicumstances now is just odd and for that I am sorry. Thank you for your love and for your lesson. i am forever grateful.
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