Sunday, February 10, 2008

i'm very frustrated...and confused..

When you love someone…do you just give all you can because you want to see the other person happy and not expect reciprocation at the same level? Or do you only truly love someone when you are able to give and take at the same time?

When you love someone…do you just accept things as they are even if it makes you unhappy and not be able to express it? Or do you only truly love when you are open with what you like and do not like and it’s something that CAN be discussed?

When you love someone…do you just accept never being a priority? Or do you only truly love when you are one of the priorities and at times be “the” priority?

When you love someone…do you truly believe what you are told? Or do you only truly love when you can accept that sometimes things are said as fleeting empty promises and were said because it was the right thing to say?

When you love someone…do you accept your partner’s reservations about acknowledging you and wait for their acceptance? Or do you only truly love when you love someone who is proud of you?

When you love someone…do you accept that you may love that person more? Or do you only truly love when you love someone who loves you equally?

When you love someone…do you accept not being told everything? Or do you only truly love when the communication is clear and honest?

When you love someone…do you accept not being in the person’s thoughts all the time? Or do you only truly love when you know the person thinks about you often and misses you?

When you love someone…do you second guess the other person’s thoughts and meanings and try to always give the benefit of the doubt? Or do you only truly love when you are assured and confident of the other person’s thoughts and feelings?

When you love someone…do you spend your time wishing the other person would miss you enough to want to spend time with you? Or do you only truly love when the other person wants to spend as much time with you as you do?

When you love someone…do you accept that calls are sometimes not answered and sms’s are sometimes ignored because they are busy or because of the presence of others? Or do you only truly love when you know your partner is happy to hear from you and will always make time for you?

When you love someone…do you accept that writing this is healthy and a positive feeling towards the beginning of something? Or do you only truly love when you are not plague by these doubts?

What do you do when you want to talk to someone you care for about things that are bothering and depressing you but dare not because you’re not sure how they’d react?

What do you do when you care for someone and they are hurting you by either their words or actions but you have to put a happy face because you keep telling yourself that they are not doing this intentionally?

What do you do when you wake up every morning with a prayer that things will improve but go to bed every night telling yourself that it might happen tomorrow instead?

What do you do when you have seen and felt the most amazing feelings, connection and security and it’s taken away almost overnight?

Do you wait for it to slowly get back there again? Or do you just accept that the moment has passed?

And if you really have to wait, is it really love when you don’t feel as if it’s an effort from both sides? And if it’s not, can it ever work?

2 comments:

Who is tAuRus?? said...

babe, for my two cents worth, be happy with who/what you have. if at any point of time, doubt or unhappiness arises & you feel that it's not worth feeling this way... move on.... 'cos life is too short to be spent feeling like shit *hugs*

mishy mashy said...

thanks babe... seriously I'm ok lah. It was just an emo moment but I know what you're saying to me is very very true...